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So, I just went through my gallery for the first time in a while and realized, "Holy crap. All this stuff is crap. Why do I upload things as soon as I finish them when I know I'll see the crapload 3309845739 errors in them a couple of weeks later?" So I promptly began scrapping and moving and deleting junk. I feel awful sitting here and going all art emo when I ought to be doing the ten pages of english homework I still have yet to finish. And it's due tomorrow...
All I want to do with my life is draw and get a job that lets me do that but as I look at my art I can't stop thinking "There's no way I can do this for a living. I suck at drawing. No one's ever going to pay ME for MY artwork." So now, I'm in a quandary as what to do with my life since I so obviously can't do what I love. Also, I feel like an idiot for going all angsty over this. I can't afford to become an emo, I freak people out enough just being myself.

So, since my art is SUCK... I've no choice but to abandon my ambitions and live my life feeling sorry for myself... Or suck it up and start doing life drawings, which I HATE. There's no other way for me to get better... I don't know what I'll do if I can't do this. Heck, maybe the world WILL end in 2012 and I won't have to worry about it. xP

So forgive me for being emo and such. I doubt it'll last long as I feel like far too much of an idiot when I allow myself to fall into the oh-so-common muck pit of teenage angst. Ick, sticky.